What Goes Around Comes Around

I vowed to my clients at Curves Glenelg that when I dropped the 100 lbs I would donate 100 lbs of non-perishable food to their food drive for the Maryland Food Bank.

Honey and I went to Costco to get the loot.  Here's what 100 lbs of food looks like:

So happy to turn a positive experience for me into a positive experience for others as well!

Murder by Numbers

I did it! 

I murdered the numbers!


I hit the 100 lbs dropped milestone marker - woot woot!

Actually it happened 2 weeks ago and I wasn't as excited as I thought I would be.  I didn't:
Announce it from the hilltops
Sky-write it
Take out an add in the NY Times
Tell everyone I passed on the street.  

I just...smiled (and did a little fist pump while standing on the scale in my closet).

I think the reason is I was just so busy and I had psychologically come to grips that I would get there.  So instead of working with blinders on towards that goal I just continued on with my day-to-day life...

and it happened.

Makes me think I've wasted a lot of time in my life obsessing over something rather than just taking the baby steps needed to get to where I wanted to go.

What's funny is that for so long I always wished I was in a movie. You know those movies where they show someone working towards a goal. The actor is shown doing all the steps everyday to reach that goal. Then they show the victory when the actor gets there.  This all takes place in the span of 2 minutes in the movie.  I always wanted it to be me.   

The coolest part about this milestone is it happened just in time to attend the National Stationery Show in NYC.  Now, my BFF Terri was disappointed last year that I missed the show...I was in LA so she definitely understood, but she really wanted me in NYC with her. And she made a comment that turned out to be rather psychic.

She said to me: "Wouldn't it be so cool if you go to next year's show 100 lbs thinner? No one would recognize you!"

I immediately thought (to myself, of course) "Yeah, right. Like that's ever gonna happen." At that point I had only dropped 15 lbs and 100 still seemed so far away and unachievable.

Stinkin' thinkin'!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Fast forward to April 29, 2011 - I'm in the Queen City (Charlotte, NC) with Terri attending the Royal Wedding Party she hosted (complete with tiaras, breakfast buffet and a wedding cake that looked just like a Tiffany gift box). While we were cleaning up we were talking about our upcoming trip to NYC for the NSS and that conversation we had the year before popped into my head.

She recalled having that conversation and we both squealed with glee that her statement actually came true.  The hug we shared at that moment goes down as one of the very best moments I've ever had with a BFF :-)

She always believed I could do it.  I didn't.  And that was the only difference.  Once I began fixing what was inside my head everything fell into place and my life has become that movie.  

I think the title should be The Climb.

Left: Today running errands;  Right: November 2009

Constant Cravings

For the past 3 months now I have led a very boring life.  

Mondays:           teach 2 hours of Zumba fitness

Tuesdays:          work out with trainer

Wednesdays:    teach 1/2 hour of Zumba fitness

Thursdays:         work out with trainer, teach 1 hour of Zumba fitness (every other week)

Fridays:              usually do something like attend a special Zumba event or treadmill sprint intervals

Saturdays:         teach 1 hour of Zumba fitness

Sundays:           day off

I find on Sundays I have a constant craving to do something physical…like exercise.  Some Sundays I'll do it - now that the weather is finally breaking a good, heart-pumping bike ride would fit the bill - but on most Sundays I force myself to abstain and give my body a rest.

In between all the exercise time I do all my normal stuff: laundry, housekeeping, bill paying, errands, food shopping, cooking, emails, organizing, plus add my job - thank goodness I work out of my home!

For many years I never thought I could fit the exercise component into my hectic schedule.  I've seen many other people fit it in (some easily, some not but they'd still find a way).  I am happy and proud to say I have figured out a way to fit it in that keeps me excited to exercise.  I have always loved to dance (consider myself to be one of the original Disco Queens) and am thrilled that I have discovered Zumba fitness. It is the most addicting cardio I have ever done.  

And I love seeing my trainer because I love how he pushes me.  

Back in LA when a trainer wanted me to do something I had never tried before my brain would immediately think, "Yeah, right, I can't do that!"  What stinkin' thinkin'!  Towards the end trainer Bronson said something to me that really hit me hard.  He told me I kept stopping faster progression because for so long I didn't have the confidence to do physical things.  He was totally right!  I had never thought about it that way but being as big as I was, as sedentary as I was with poor balance and achy joints DID make me believe I couldn't do most physical things.  Bronson made me open my mind to new possibilities.

Now, when my East Coast trainer has me do something new I immediately think, "OK he thinks I'm ready to do this so I'm giving it my all."  And I'm able to perform every task he's asked of me so far.  Some are shaky in the beginning, but I build it up to where I can perform the task flawlessly.  You cannot imagine what it feels like to complete the task!  It's a combination of pride, satisfaction, bewilderment, and confidence.  For you that feeling may be something different.  I challenge you all to figure out what that feeling is for you and report back.  I promise you'll love yourself for it!

This week should be the BIG milestone - the week where I hit the 100-pound mark.  I'll keep you posted...

Independence Day

Today marks the one year anniversary when I left home to change my life for good.  I moved to the West Coast for 2 months and lived at a fitness camp - the same fitness camp recently featured on The Rachael Ray Show - Live In Fitness Enterprises - LIFE.  When I arrived I met a 24-yr-old who was also beginning her journey that day - Desi.  

Desi and I were paired up from the beginning and eventually became roomies.  Poor Desi was never getting rid of this old lady lol!

I met a few BFFs along the way as well:  Maria the latin bombshell from Miami, Judy the southern belle from Dallas, and Ginger the high-powered corporate woman from DC.  Together we groaned, grunted, sweated, cursed, laughed, cried, lifted, ran, biked, hiked, squatted, swam, danced, and ate our way to smaller sizes.  Thank God we had each other for support through any crisis that arose.

Fast forward 1 year:   we have all continued our good eating habits (taught by our effervescent nutritionist Karen Sherwood from Nutritious America); we all have continued to exercise nearly every day; we have all dropped even more weight.  Maria is down 130 lbs., Judy is down 103 lbs., Ginger is down 36 lbs., Desi is down 67 lbs., and I am down 92 lbs.   Ginger is done as she was the smallest of our group, but the rest of us still have just a bit we want to shed - for me it's about another 30.

The day I arrived at LIFE began with me face-planting in the Baltimore airport - injured before I even left home yikes!  The next day began with me talking to some guy with big sunglasses named Cedric and I said a couple of ditzy things - I blame it all on the blood sugar…it was that food they were making me eat lol.  After he took off the sunglasses I realized he was Cedric the Entertainer (OMG he thinks I'm a dork!).  I cried twice that week - I hit a wall and just thought my body couldn't do anything more.

What a difference today!  In October I broke my toe during a workout with my Baltimore trainer and I continued the workout until the end.  That would have NEVER happened pre-LIFE.  For the remainder of the month I continued to workout with my trainer, teach Zumba fitness classes, and run the Marine Corps Marathon 10K race all with a broken toe. 

I celebrated my one year anniversary today at the gym with my trainer Marc.  We took pics of me "doing my thing" which I will continue to do until my body doesn't let me anymore.

Here's my picture the day I arrived at LIFE.

Here's me today with my trainer Marc…still a big belly and some saggy boobs and batwing arms, but hey…I'll be 50 this year…nothing a little nip and tuck won't take care of when I'm completely done with the weight.  

Jonathan would be delighted that Marc made me do burpees today!!!

Rob would be thrilled with my advanced plank moves these days.

Arleigh would love my dead lift savvy.

Bronson would love my squat/pull back.

Amber would love my curls.

Schuyler would love my chest press.

And Nicola and Eric would love it all!

Ahhh…love the water break…I drink between 3-4 of these liter bottles of Smart Water a day!

My honey says I clean up pretty good.

After all that working out I taught a Zumba fitness class tonight.  Not only am I a different person than I was a year ago, making lots of different choices, but also I'm a much happier person.  I seem to have a permanent smile on my face these days and I plan to keep it!


Carpe diem every day for the rest of your life!

My Anniversary

Today is my 1 year anniversary since I decided to change my life. It's been one heck of a roller coaster so far.

Last February I began the journey weighing 294 lbs. I started walking on my treadmill and participating in The Game On! Diet.

On vacation January 2010

On March 29th I left for a 2-month journey living in Los Angeles working out Biggest Loser style.
When I returned home Memorial Day Weekend I was a runner (slow, but steady) and healthy eater...45 lbs lighter from when I started on February 15th.

June was spent getting reacclimated to living amongst my family and real life temptations...and taking lots of Zumba classes.

In July I nursed my ruptured cervical disc then proceeded to become a licensed Zumba instructor.

In August I worked out faithfully and did my best to stay on track with my food. Some days I'd win the battle and some days I'd lose.  I felt like I was a little lost.

In September I started working out with a trainer boot camp style and increased to a whole new level of fitness. I had worked out with the trainer in the past, but never like this.

In October I became a running demon and had a reunion with my girlfriends forms LA. We ran the 10K in the Marine Corps Marathon (Ginger ran the actual marathon) and had a blast doing it.

Maria, Me & Judy - October 2010

In November I stepped up my workouts with my trainer adding boxing to the mix.  I also began teaching Zumba fitness classes.

December was a great month for me.  I returned to my fitness camp in LA for a week.  I was thrilled that I was able to perform every exercise the trainers requested.  I not only surpassed my expectations, but also theirs!  They were all so impressed that I had really taken their lessons and trainings to heart and continued them at home.  In several cases I was the only person who could perform a certain exercise in some of the circuit trainings. I left LA the second time weighing 222.

Christmas Day 2010

In January I began teaching Zumba in the Circuit classes at Curves and entered another round of The Game On! Diet while also continuing to train with Mr. Clean.  He has such faith in me and continually gives me new exercises.  At this point I don't doubt I can do anything...I just look at him and say, "Okay you obviously think I can do this so I will!"  And I do it!  Such a change from when I first went to LA and didn't have that kind of confidence in myself.

And today, 1 year since I've begun this journey I'm down 85 lbs. I still have another 40-ish to go, but I've realized that "slow but steady wins the race!"

What living in LA did for me was change my mindset...I now exercise 6 days a week...anywhere from 1-3 hours.  I AM doing it, but this nasty winter weather has been wreaking emotional havoc on my body. I'm craving heavy fattening comfort food and I'm fighting the food demon! Sometimes I lose the battle but only for a day or so, then I channel my LA self and get back on track.

I have weighed over 200 lbs since my daughter was born...that was 20 years ago, but next month I will Finally be in the 100's. This past week I had to go through my closet again and sent 1/2 of it to goodwill.  All of this is very rewarding, because, trust me, I never thought I was the kind of person who could lose 100+ lbs., but that is the ultimate goal.

Last week my hubby & I were out to dinner and some friends walked in (3 couples).  I went to their table to say hello. 1 of the husbands was still parking his car and when he walked in he went around the table and said hello and kissed all the women...except me...he didn't recognize me!  Poor guy was so embarrassed, but I took it as a complement.

The scale going down, downsizing the closet, getting positive reaction from friends, and inspiring others have definitely made this journey worthwhile.  Some days I just want to be at my goal and am impatient, but I just keep on Doing It knowing that the goal is in my future.  And I love that the women taking my Zumba classes are inspired and working on their health goals!

Listen, if I can do it, I Promise you can do it too!!!!  Set your sights on your goal and just begin the journey. In a year you'll be celebrating your anniversary and be thrilled with your accomplishments.

As my buddy Rob Thompson of Get Fit By Rob always says, "Let's get it!"

Move, Shake, Drop

My body is my temple.

It doesn't agree.

It's too busy being sore - in different places everyday.

Getting in shape is hard work. Aside from working out with Marc (aka Mr. Clean), I've been doing more running to train for the Marine Corps Marathon 10K. You didn't really think I'd be running the marathon, did you? Nope. I'm leaving that up to my girl Ginger.

I'm so excited because my LA girls are reuniting for that weekend! Judy's flying in from Dallas and Maria's flying in from Miami. Our girl Kandee is flying in from LA to meet up with a friend. We're the smart ones - running the 10K. Once we cross that finish line we'll hang out and cheer Ginger on as she crosses her finish line a few hours later.

You see Ginger got herself in a pickle and I've never been a fan of pickled ginger. (That's one item always left behind on my sushi plate - ha!) Ginger has convinced a slew of people from work to run this marathon with her including her CEO and her Board of Directors. Now she's under stress to really perform!

But, Ginger, your LA peeps KNOW you can do it!

We're all moving, shaking and dropping (pounds, that is)!

So back to my body. This week's extra running is starting to affect my shins. They are sore and sometimes throb. I've been icing them and will continue to do so until they get used to keeping up with my determination. I've come to grips with the fact that new areas of my body will flare up on a regular basis.

As Mr. Clean said, "That's par for the course for an athlete."

Puts a whole new perspective on things, doesn't it?

Sugar, Oh Honey, Honey

Yesterday began on a great note but by 2:30 I was very cranky and I don't know why. I hate that out of control feeling I get when my mood goes south.  I guess it's hormones - I don't really know but I do know that's not the real me.

The 1st thing I thought of after a minor encounter with my Honey was: "I want something sweet." I actually caught myself thinking that!

Why do my thoughts go automatically there - to sugarland?

More specifically, it's not really plain sugar...it's actually chocolate and fat that I crave when I'm stressed or hormonal.  The only explanation I have is the serotonin, endorphins and other compounds inherently found in chocolate that lift your mood.  I think I crave not only knowing how delicious and decadent the chocolate would be, but also that consuming the chocolate will enhance my mood. 

But, alas, I'm playing Game On! and chocolate was not on my menu yesterday. So...I didn't have any. Instead I grabbed another bottle of water and took a quick break from reality by escaping into a book.  It did make me feel better and i finished my day with a perfect score!

I'm saving the chocolate for my day off.